Well I have a crush on my same friend who is bi ual. we are bestfriends. I really love her. Its not..?

bout ual side cause i never messed with a girl. Somehow she is my everything that i wish i could have in a guy. We both like each other that way. My family is really against s,gays, and s. But i fell in with my bestfriend who happens to be a girl. Its about how she is there for me. We been thru bad and good times and our friendship is becoming stronger. I would loe to have a relationship but i would have to hide it and idk if i would like messin with a girl ually but she makes me hjave that special feeling? what should i do?