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Wow.....that is an amazing story. I'm guessing you were catholic and fell away like you said? I would say to get back with the church and connect again with God. God is understanding no matter what you do he forgives as long as you believe in him and feel bad for what you have done and not do it again. I was really happy to hear that you kept one of you three children. I just feel bad for the other two who weren't able to live this wonderful life. Promise me if you do have another child that you wont abort it. Please give it up for adoption. God loves you and I hope you are living a happy life even though you when through alot of ****.